You know, the one that gets you all giddy inside when you see them. The one that makes you listen to sappy songs and think about them. The one you think about before you go to sleep and when you wake up. That one person who’s text you wait for before you answer everyone else’s. The person you’re thinking about while you’re reading this. That person you’re so crazy for and you don’t even know why.
I do what you want from me, I see you more, I talk to you more, and I am working on myself to be better for you. Yet you still question everything I do. You don’t understand that I’m am trying and you say you listen, but I can tell you’re not really listening, just like a lot of other people in my life. Hoe else can I make you see? What else do you want from me? People can say they care, but you can tell the difference with people who fake it and people who actually care. It’s not okay to just drop off the face of the earth and blow me off and then come back like everything is cool. Then you want me to stick around and just wait a long time and then come back into my life just to do it all over again. Stop pushing me away, I am trying to be there and I just keep getting pushed away. Soon enough your gonna push me off the cliff and I won’t come back. I guess I am stupid enough to let people keep doing into to me and just letting them back in because I love talking to them or being around them. Even though I know what the outcome will be. I am done though, no more waiting, no more getting let down, I am just done. If you want to talk or see me then you will make the effort because I have spent enough time on that. My guard is going back up so now I can’t get hurt.
Thats my rant for the night. Got so much on my mind….
Hung out with some friends and got s new pipe!! Then a movie with Melvin was pretty awesome. Not one thought was given about you today… Boo. Ya. Now for the rest of the night. Unfortunately my grandma took over my favorite room!!! O well=)
I think that the most bull shit saying ever is “you get what you give.” fuck that, that is so far from the truth. You give something all you can and you end up getting shot back. So what’s the point of trying?